Andy love you so
Diano felt exhausted. He hadn’t expected so much drama at the airport. It was getting out of hand. He turned away from the crowd wanting to walk a few paces away and calm himself down. Suddenly, someone hugged him from behind!
“I found him. I found him.” The guy had a familiar voice. Diano couldn’t see his face. Another stranger ran up to them. What the fuck!
“Sorry. I’m so sorry,” the second guy said.
“I told you. He exists. I found him.” The first guy released him and stepped back to look at Diano’s face. It took Diano a moment to recognize him.
“Andy!” God, he looked so…fat!
“Yes, that’s my name,” said Andy. “But, pardon me, I’ve forgotten your name. Please, tell me your name.”
“What do you mean? How can you forget my name, Andy?” asked Diano.
“Andy?” asked Oliver. “From Shanghai?”
“No. I’m from Guilin. But I lived in Shanghai before. Sky told me I had an accident. I’ve lost my memory. So I can’t remember your names. I’m sorry.” Andy smiled like a little kid who was about to receive a box of candy.
“You’re Sky?” Diano asked Andy’s friend.
“Yes, I am. What’s your name?” Sky extended his hand to shake Diano’s.
“I’m Diano.” Diano shook Sky’s hands. “What accident?”
“He fell down a staircase.” Sky responded before Andy could.
“Oh. When was that?”
“In February, last year. It’s a miracle he’s alive.” Sky looked at Andy.
“Can I speak to you separately? Is that okay?” Andy asked Diano.
Diano looked at Brian who nodded an okay.
As Diano and Andy walked away, Diano heard Nyle speak.
“Who’s he?”
“He’s Diano’s ex-boyfriend,” Oliver said.
Sky followed them.
“I want to talk to him in private, Sky. Please give us two minutes.” Andy told him.
Sky stepped back, looking unwilling and unhappy.
“How are you, Andy?” asked Diano. It was nice to meet him after so many months.
“I’m fine. But I’m not okay. I wanted to talk to you separately because I want to know about you. I want to know about us.” Andy whispered as if he were afraid Sky would hear them.
“What do you want to know?”
“Everything. Please, tell me everything. I need to know. I’m with Sky but every time I fall asleep I see you in my dreams. At first, everybody tried to tell me it was just a dream. I didn’t believe them at all. And then I saw you in Taipei.”
“You were in Taipei? Why didn’t you call me, Andy? I have missed you so much.”
“Aaarrgh. It’s my memory. I lost my phone. I lost my contacts. I lost my passwords. I couldn’t even remember your name. I just saw you and I knew you were the guy from my dreams. Actually, it’s the same dream that repeats every other day. I see you taking a train and I’m chasing it, trying to catch your attention, but you don’t see me.”
“And the train pulls out of the station?” Diano shivered.
“Yes! And I’d fall down helplessly. This actually happened to me in Taipei later when I chased the train you were in. But you didn’t see me.”
“Oh God, it’s so surreal. I’d the same dreams about you for months!” Diano felt weak at his knees.
“What does that mean?” Andy asked.
“I don’t know. But it doesn’t look normal.”
“I have a personal question for you.”
“Yes?”
“Were you my boyfriend before? I can’t remember anything. Sky tells me he’s my boyfriend but I keep thinking about you all the time. I can’t remember anything else.”
“We met online first. Then we met face to face when I was up in Shanghai on business. We spent a lot of time together, a lot of romantic time. Then I returned to Hong Kong. It was at that point when you’d told me that you loved me.”
“Really? Did you love me back?” Andy was a kid again.
“Yes. I went back to Shanghai on the day after Valentine’s Day to meet you.”
“And then?”
“You had disappeared. I spent the weekend waiting for you. You didn’t reply to any message or call. That’s when I met Oliver.” Diano pointed out Oliver. “That’s how he knows about you.”
“I can’t remember anything. Damn.” Andy looked distressed.
“That’s okay. It’s past now.”
“Why do you say that? Do you not love me any more?” Andy’s question surprised Diano.
“You wrote to your flatmate telling him you were moving back to Guilin. I didn’t have a choice, did I? It broke my heart because I loved you. But you’d chosen to go with your ex-boyfriend, Sky, and not me. What could I do?” Diano felt tears well up in his eyes.
“Sky was my ex-boyfriend? Is that why I can never feel any warmth for him?” Andy paused for a moment. “I’m sorry I hurt you. But I know I love you. I’ve spent weeks trying to sketch you from memory and if it weren’t for the photographs from the Hong Kong Pride, I wouldn’t have realized you lived here.”
“Oh.” Diano was amazed.
“And can you beat this one? I arrive here and within an hour I spot you. How can you explain that?” Andy smiled.
“I can’t. ”
“Do you think we can be lovers again? I wanna be with you.”
“What about Sky?”
“I don’t know. He’s done so much for me. My relationship with him is like paying back a debt. He took care of me when I was almost dead and brought me back to this stage. He’s done so much for me.” Andy looked at Sky.
“Then, you have your answer.” Diano tried to smile. One part of his heart longed to be with Andy. But he didn’t want to come in between him and Sky.
